Inside Out

The way (s)he moves, the way (s)he looks, the way (s)he feels, the way (s)he freshens everything up, this all pulls me in. Everything’s just so inviting. I invite you to think: if (s)he was not inviting at all on the outside, would I even take my time to meet his/her inside? Its perfectly known that everything comes through the eyes, but what if some of us don’t have the ability to use ONLY the eyes or perhaps the heart itself? Our eyes don’t lie, they choose if we like something or not.

But so does our heart. It certainly does not lie, but it changes things completely. It manages to convert something, which shows only in the inside, on the outside. It makes us like something on the inside more than the outside. The inside shows amazing, unbelievable things that we never knew because of how “covered” our eyes we were, only interested on the outside. Maybe we’re blinded by the tangible and should see things the other way. From the inside out. The transformation makes you see everything from a new point of view. It makes you realize new perspectives of life and it just refreshes the dull, vain world. Most of life’s exquisite (put subject here) are better looking from the inside out.

Clark Little Photography

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Sick Dreamer

Isn't it just sick to dream? To dream of things that you’ll never have, never experience and never achieve? There’s just something wrong with our heads. It has too much of a weird way of being and I will never come across it perfectly. Our minds, the genesis of everything I know, has got very sick moments. But once again I recall of those “sick ones” who have invented everything we need nowadays. Those dreamers who made their wildest dreams come true, those who were sick enough to make their imagination real, those who made us live in the world we are living.

I want to become a “sick person” who makes her dreams reality, who achieves new levels of pleasure, hope, relationships, a job, money, intelligence, of every spec of life which is so important. I want to become a dreamer who believes her strangest, most faraway-from-reality dreams can come true. I want to make this world twist and shout to a brighter tomorrow just like all those people we ALL in different ways look upon.

Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.

- Harriet Tubman

self-recovery

I can’t stand when something’s broken.

For all the good reasons or all the bad reasons, its broken. It has a wound. A wound can take you to the hospital, make you get stitches, make you agonize by the pain or simply cause you an uncomfortably time. A wound, may be treated the right way or the wrong way. When you treat a wound a good way, you cleanse it, you try to make it better, others try to make it better, and little by little it will recover. If you’re REALLY lucky the scar won’t be so visible. If you treat it the bad way, like touching it, not taking care of the injury and OVERALL making the wrong moves at wrong times will leave a VERY VISIBLE SCAR. Try to cover it up with clothe, with make-up, with photoshop effects GUESS WHAT it’s still there. Its in your gut (or your heart) to:

~remember the cause of what left you marked, and being overwhelmed by it and to fall from the tower you had built.

~remember the cause of what left you marked, and realizing how strong you are by carrying it around and saying: “damn right, I got hurt, but moved on with my life. I may not be the happiest, most-blessed, best-looking person, but I’m certainly a fighter and I can recover of whatever I want to when I want to.”

So why, instead of making all the right moves, taking all the right ways and making it a “nicer” scar, do we sometimes just want the scar to be uglier, worst-looking and “painfuller”?

Its a matter of self-confidence, self-respect and self-consciousness. Take the right ways, the right paths, and maybe we’ll reduce the size of our scars.

Happy Father's Day

Its funny how I'm in love with some parents. Love my friends moms, but their fathers just make me shiver. I'm so jealous, so happy that they're still around and that they hug me every once in a while. I've fallin in love with a Dad's hug. They make you feel so protected, so loved!

SIGH.

So Yeah. Father's Day.

Everything started to remind me of you since April.

Music, TV, Basketball Finals.

More than it had since 9 years ago. It was kinda rough and smooth, tough and easy but most of all... I was looking out for your hug. But then I realized God sent me someone to rely on and I hadn't seen it before

He made a miracle come true, and he made her happy. Can't believe I understood it all, that You sent him, on Father's day. While I made each dad a Happy-Valentines-Card last night, I made his and it came out so nicely. It made my eyes get wet and it made me feel so much better writing so someone I wanted to write so long ago. A Dad.

My defense mechanism expired, It really did hit me 9 years later.

But now, I think he recieved the first "thank you DAD/FRIEND, Happy Father's Day"

I know it meant so much for him, and I also know that Mr. Villalobos was happy to see me having a father again.

I needed it so much. Thank you.

Happy Fathers Day God, Mr. Villa and Eduardo

Thank you for giving a meaning to a color

And I present the Class of 2010.

I heard Bill’s countdown and I threw my cap through the air... What a feeling.

I heard David scream SENIORS and this was finally over. The echo of my classmates screaming, crying, laughing filled every single spot in my body with butterflies. The final countdown was over. Everything I looked at, everything I heard was screaming SCHOOL’S OVER. Even if I already started University, this was the closure. This was the conclusion of my school years and welcoming to a new point in life. The real world... As I walked out of the institution in which I got to know people who changed everything in my life, I kissed his lips and this made it an even better closure.

I’ll miss your laugh, your smile, school. I’ll miss your shirts tucked in, your way of embracing the Class of 2010 as a whole. I’ll miss your 3am Serenatas at camp, your stupid mile, and your multicolored soda.

Most of all, I will miss my classmates. The ones who made this thing KICK ASS. The ones who made me reach unknown levels of happiness, of pleasure, of friendship. What will be of you all in the real world? What will I be without you guys? Unknown answer because this is just starting. A lot of you are leaving in a few weeks and sincerely I’m so proud. So proud of your ways of seeing life. It scares me so much imagining you guys walking into a whole new world and molding it to your ways. But I wish you the best of luck babes, I know you will prosper if you put it all in Gods hands.

Class of 2010: thank you for being incomparable with any other. Thank you for having different personalities, for making them explode and calming them when it was needed. Thank you for singing and dancing. Thank you for letting me know what was good and bad. Thank you for changing it all for me. Thank you for coming with me to 6 different countries and make it the best week of my life.Thank you for your prayers, for the blessings. Thank you for all the things we achieved. I will truly miss you and I sincerely wish you guys the best cause its what YOU GUYS DESERVE.

Thank you for giving a meaning to a color.

Thank you school for giving it all a reason

Dont Let Me Down Dear Prudence, Here Comes The Sun, I’ve Seen A Face And I Love Her.

Where have you guys been all my life?

Scratch that

WHERE HAVE I BEEN THAT I NEVER CAME AROUND YOU GUYS and STOPPED and LISTENED to you SONGS?

The Beatles Blog.

His favorite group of all time are the Beatles and I never understood why. Their music is no not likable. Until now. Across The Universe, a musical with only Beatles music was so amazing. It’s LAME cause I liked the Beatles until I saw the movie and not because I took my time to listen to their lyrics and sounds.

But it’s amazing how a movie can change your way of seeing life. That’s EXACTLY why I’m studying film. I want to create all these moving images with music so that YOU precisely can feel everything through your eye and ear senses.

The movie is about a young man who comes from England looking for his father and finds friends and love. He and his friends move to the greatest city on Earth... NEW YORK. In the times of Vietnam, the peace movement is starting and Jude (the English dude), his friends and his lover become radical. He is then put into jail and sent back to his country because of his lack of Visa. After thinking it all again, he gets a Visa and goes back to look for his love. He gets there, and it obviously has a happy ending and everything’s right. But what I most liked about the movie (obviously) is the music, cause it tells a story and it just fits perfectly right. Every characters name rymes with a song and the director put the songs and everything in the correct place. I loved it. Thank you Julie Taymor for making me love Beatles and falling in love with your hippie movie.

It’s funny cause now, the only thing I listen to is Beatles... The awesome ride I take when I listen to their hippie sounds and short but concise lyrics. Their so straight to the point and take it all so slowly and easily. Just the way I live my life. I think thats kind of what I like the best, cause they’re so easy going, peace-lovers and just fine.

As the name of this blog, my favorite songs are

Don’t Let Me Down

cause of its sentimental matter. The lyrics just go perfectly with my life now.

Dear Prudence

because of the bring-me-up-when-I’m-down lyrics. It makes you see the sunny side of your BLESSED day. I think of it as a very smooth song that you would love THAT PERSON to sing it to you, and just take you to the clouds and back. It’s a very soft, not hurtful slap-on-the-face to see everything you’ve got around and to just ignore the useless drama, the shallow world and the hurtful words. It makes me smile. Simple as that.

Come Together

It's one of the songs which meanings I still haven’t understood. But the rhythm is so calm, and the chorus is absolutely amazing. I love it. Its my actual ringtone haha.

Oh Darling.

It’s like what I randomly burst (singing) screaming. It can be my favorite karaoke song. Love the lyrics and love the sexy feeling it has. Lyrics are very very true. That point in life when you think you are so close to something and that somethings tells you what you never want to hear... It doesn’t need you anymore and it wants nothing to do with you. But how I always say, what’s not doing any good to you is a waste that belongs in the TRASH.

Here Comes The Sun.

The song that reminds me of him. After a long time of darkness, of loneliness, of non-acceptance in a loving way. The sun has come and it has a name. He gave me my smile back, and he gave my life a twist. It’s a soothing song, just like him.

I’ve Just Seen A Face.

COME ON. It’s what we all felt when we saw his/her face and it’s all just turning the way it should. The way when you’re falling and the other person’s too. What a feeling... I pray that all you out there can feel this as soon as possible.

All You Need Is Love.

There's nothing you can do that cant be done. nothing you can do but you can learn how to be you in times. ITS EASY. All you need is love. Love is all I need. That’s all im saying.

I Want You (She's So Heavy)

hello sexiest song. Cause I want YOU, I want you so bad.

Drive My Car

funny song. beep beep'm beep beep yeaaah! It's fun to listen to. And I've got the chorus stuck in my head.

I Wanna Hold Your Hand.

Its what we’ve felt when the only thing you want to do is hold that persons hand and KNOW that the other person wants to do so too. Its the butterflies in your stomach, its the moment when you hold her/his hand and you can’t explain how you can be touching the clouds while you’re still on the ground.

And I Love Her.

He dedicated this song to me... speechless.

Revolution 1.

It’s for the stupid pro-war people. We all want peace, even you guys do. But having war for peace is like fucking for virgins. Stop war.

And one of my other most famous quotes... Everything’s gonna be alright.

That was my pro-peace, pro-musicals, pro-Beatles blog

Raining LOVE

Rainy Season just started, my first college vacations started and I’m SO relaxed. Just watching the rain fall, hearing its relaxing tone… Yes I can do this for a whole week. But it’s funny how sometimes we prefer to do nothing at another place rather than home. Home can become boring after repeating a dull routine. Wake up, breakfast, get ready, class, back home, Facebook, O MY GOD I need to run away from here and just escape reality. Luckily, that’s why I’m leaving for eleven days. Exactly what I needed. I’m so curious of knowing all the elements that drag you back home. You may be in the coolest place ever, but nothing compares to home. I know I’ll want to come home to my cozy bed after a while. It’s so contradictive.

Watching the rain fall while I sit in the kitchen table, knowing that tomorrow at 7am I’ll be on a plane ESCAPING reality, and that this weekend I’ll be feeling the warm sun and writing on my new Mac?… it’s so REFRESHING. Knowing that maybe I might have my American Dream come true, knowing I’m going to come back and have everything my way once again. HAPPINESS, HOPE, being true to myself: my key out of everything. My life is in God’s hands, and I hope to come back and see my lovely family once again.

Thank God I can have these reality escapades. Thank God I have a wonderful family that is lying in their beds hearing the rainfall, being completely non-preoccupied for whatever tomorrow brings. Waiting hopefully for me to come home once again. In my life, It rains hope, happiness, truth, and what I most like that falls from the sky… LOVE

A True Friendship Isn't Being Inseparable, Its Being Separated And Nothing Changes

My best friend got accepted in Saint Thomas University in Canada. I'm so happy for her, her dream came true:)

Obviously were all sad cause she's leaving. As someone who's very smart said: its not who's know you longer, its who knows you better. It happens that she's the one who knows me better, the one who just shuts up and listens, the one who walked in when the rest walked out.

I've now noticed she's not only an amazing woman with great strength and great attitude, but she's also a simple girl who wants to conquer the world, but will not do it if her most loved ones are not by her side. She's a free soul who wants to laugh at everything cause she knows she's better than all that

She's simplicity, she's fashion. she's strong, she's beautiful. she's smart, she's my best friend. She makes my world spin in a second and she's just THERE for me in all my ups and downs. She listens to my secrets as I listen to hers. I may not be there for her 24/7, but I sure make my best to be there 25/8.

Once again we realize how much someone can be in your life in so little time. It's been like two years since we've known each other and I can sure say I know her.

Mai, I want to let you know that I love you, that I'm so happy you've come through everything so that you are the perfect person you are now. I know you are not perfect, but for me you are.

Its funny how sometimes I don't understand what and why you're doing what you're doing, but when you come and open that mouth and tell me whats going on, somehow, I understand everything you say and do.

I LOVE YOU Mai, thanks for giving me wings and letting me fly. Have a great trip to STU♥

We will all be waiting for you down here.

MUTE

It’s funny how we ALL sometimes want to mute someone or someones. The squeaky voice that tells us to clean up our rooms, the one who gets mad if you don’t wash the dishes or the voice which just screams at you because precisely YOUR ears are the only ones who are close enough to listen. But it’s a weird life we live in and we’re all so full of it. It can be a parent, a sibling, a friend, a love relationship, a sex relationship, a boss, a teacher, or someone who you have no idea why he/she is screaming at you. ANNOYING. No one wants to be yelled at, and much less if they know that the other person is so upset at you they have to SCREAM. I hate being screamed at. Its annoying and it makes me SO mad. Ugh. Why can’t you just CALM DOWN and then try to find answers? Problem solved by talking in a PEACEFUL way. That’s why im not getting strange diseases caused by stress. LIVE EASY and you will prosper :)